Spencer Matthews: The Real Reason I Push Myself So Hard...

Begin Again with Davina McCall

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Thursday, 18 December 2025 - 1 hour 15 minutes

In this episode of Begin Again, Spencer Matthews opens up about the life-defining challenge that forced him to confront fear, trauma, and who he really wanted to become.

Spencer shares the story behind Project 7, his mission to complete seven Ironman triathlons across seven continents, and the moments he thought it might break him. From the freezing waters of Antarctica to terrifying encounters in Cape Town, he speaks honestly about fear, fatherhood, and the pressure to prove he’s changed.

He reflects on the death of his brother Michael, his struggles with alcohol, and how falling in love made him want to become someone entirely new. Spencer talks movingly about his relationship with his wife, Vogue, and how wanting to be worthy of her transformed every part of his life.

Spencer also talks about masculinity, emotional vulnerability, and why pushing his limits helps him stay grounded. This conversation is raw, reflective, and full of insight for anyone trying to rebuild or redefine themselves.

Whether you're chasing self-improvement, navigating grief, or figuring out how to begin again this episode will resonate deeply.

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(00:00) Intro
(01:13) Project Seven & Breaking Two World Records
(09:49) Learning to Show Emotion and Express Himself
(19:35) Overcoming Fear and Embracing Personal Growth
(25:54) How Spencer’s Wife Vogue Transformed His Life
(33:56) Spencer's Journey to Self-Discovery
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(39:17) Losing His Brother Michael and How It Shaped Spencer
(47:38) Spencer’s Ongoing Commitment to Self-Improvement
(50:53) Struggles With Alcoholism and Finding Moderation
(59:12) James’ Place: Supporting Men’s Mental Health
(01:04:17) Addressing the Modern Crisis in Masculinity
(01:08:50) Inside Spencer’s New Documentary: Am I a Psychopath?
(01:10:26) What’s Next for Spencer?

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